Some Birthday Resolutions
By Gregory Jacobs-Roseman (Composer-Lyricist)
This Saturday I’m hitting a non-milestone “milestone” birthday. And although turning 29 isn’t like hitting a big, round number such as 30, it is the very last year of my 20’s – a decade of my life that has been awash with landmarks, growth, life lessons, and of course, booze. I’m a pretty reflective person, and I know that each day of my 29th year I’ll be thinking: this is the last Independence Day, Halloween, New Year’s Eve, April 26th, etc. of my 20’s.
There are a lot of things I had resolved to do by the time I’m 30, and I’ve only got one year left to complete them. Quitting smoking is – forgive the pun – hanging like a dark cloud over my head, and my writing has been somewhat slow going since graduate school. There’s plenty to look back on and say: “man, I wish I had done [insert regret here] differently.” But then again, I know myself, and I know that when pushed against a wall, or when facing a looming deadline, I tend to kick shit into high gear, and that’s what I’m resolving to do on June 2nd.
I’ve always liked having my birthday in June. While I’m not a summer person – hate the heat, never liked the beach, and I still have horrible childhood memories from JCC summer camp – I do like that I get a slight reset button in the middle of the year. Everyone makes New Year’s resolutions. I, however, also like to make Birthday resolutions. It helps keep me from staring into the rear-view mirror (which if you know me, you know is something that’s a chronic addiction of mine) and instead remind myself to look at where I’m going, not where I was. Forward momentum.
My goal for 29 is to break three bad habits. First off: I want to stop being so hard on myself. It’s so easy to beat yourself up for not being as far along in your career as you thought you should be at a certain age. I need to accept that as long as I keep working, it will pay off. Second: I need to stop comparing my success to that of my peers. That is never productive. We all work at our own pace. Finally, and most importantly, I want to stop glorifying the work I did in the past and instead focus on what I’m going to create in the future. So you had this fantastic reading or production a year or two ago. Great. But that’s not going to change what you’re going to accomplish a year or two from now.
So this is my last Crazytown post as a 28-year-old. Again, not exactly a milestone. Still, anytime you take a moment to step back and get a wide-angle perspective on your life and its trajectory, I think that’s a good thing.
GREGORY JACOBS-ROSEMAN is a composer/lyricist and theatrical sound designer currently developing Save The Date: A New Musical Comedy. www.gregjr.com
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