Without change, we stagnate... or become very boring.
By Douglas Byrne (Forever Twenty-Nine)
"This city lacks the danger I'm looking for..." - from Make Me Bad, written by Drew Gasparini
Aging has changed me.
Not that I think I'm ancient or anything... but let's face facts, I can't (believably) stay twenty-nine forever. I just feel that when I was younger, I was less concerned about consequences. Now I constantly think about them.
I am really feeling the need to move to New York, and have been for quite some time. Ten years ago, I would have just done it. Now I worry about money, a job, logistics... Ten years ago, I would have figured it out and would have moved on with the rest of my day.
Still, the more I think about it, the more I know that it's what I need to do. I want to be part of that world. I want to be involved more in the arts. Being in exile in the Twin Cities is fine and all, but I'd like to leave the house and do other things that involve the arts. (The options for this are exceedingly limited here.) I've always felt comfortable and alive in New York...
I've been thinking of this quite a bit since I finished watching The Power of Myth with Bill Moyers (a six-part documentary featuring interviews with Joseph Campbell). If I am truly to "follow my bliss", then I have to realize that, while I have stayed on the path artistically, I have lost it a bit in my daily life and my location.
I will be back in Manhattan in two weeks' time for a concert. Part of me thinks I might stay.