Taking stock and moving forward
By Sam Perwin
I'm going to keep this one short, since the internet doesn't need another blog post from a whiny actor who didn't get a job he thought he "deserved" or "was perfect for" or "had in the bag." But let me say this, Crazytown - I had a rough week last week. I let the biz get to me in a way it hasn't in a long time. There were some tears; there was a lot of questioning; there were some unhealthy food choices; there was wine.
The business we call show becomes the most maddening just when you think you have it figured out. You develop connections, you hone your craft, you bring it at the auditions, and yet don't even get a god-damned callback for something you think you should be booking in your sleep. Is it hubris? Delusions of grandeur? An inflated sense of entitlement? All of the above? Where did I put that wine?
I've learned enough about showbiz to know that about 97% of getting a job is out of your control, so it's best to focus on that lovely little 3% that you can own. Letting go of that bullshit that's beyond me has allowed me to open some doors on a project that's been dormant for a while, and kicked my ass in gear on putting a show together for myself. As Mr. Sondheim says: "look at what you want, not at where are you are..." Wise words.