Or how I’m battling the winter droll with friends and Vitamin D.
By Rachel James (Treasurer/Writer)
I know that the winter solstice has come and gone and the days are getting longer. And I’m making sure to take my Vitamin D pills. But it’s still completely dark when I leave work and I just want to sleep.
Someone took my life motto. Image via.
So in order to stay “with it” and continue my new year resolution to see more stuff, I have been saying “yes”. Yes, I will go see that show. Yes, please have your rehearsal in my empty living room. Yes, let’s go to this beer/whiskey festival. And instead of feeling overwhelmed as I sometimes would, I’m actually excited. I enjoy looking at my calendar and seeing it filled. I enjoy new experiences. And, even though I feel amazed with the necessity, I enjoy making plans to hang out with friends.
Discovering new ideas and sharing new experiences is great, but it doesn’t help everything. For example, it still doesn’t help me come up with something witty and relevant to write for Crazytown every week. It doesn’t help me come up with things to write for my own musings. I do hope you enjoy my writing, and those of my fellow artists here. But I’m not always sure it’s something that is applicable to your life, or something you want to know. Sometimes, much of this feels quite selfish and self-centered. But I sit down every week, knowing there is a deadline looming, and I type out some sort of witty repartee that I hope you enjoy.
Susan Main, one of my college professors, had a saying about all the negative thoughts and voices we had about our work and creations: "Fuck the committee". I still have to say that to myself several times a day.
Maybe it’s the ever present darkness, or maybe it’s the post-holiday malaise, but fighting the negativity feels hardest for me right now. I want to take the momentum of a New Year further than week one. I want to be in awe of something. I want the trees outside my window to start sprouting leaves again.
But for now, I will fight the negative voices in my head trying to keep me out of the sun. I will return to the page and keep writing. I will go see a rock show and jump around, dancing. I will laugh my face off at a comedy. I will sit with a group of friends and share ideas and create something wonderful. I will say “Yes”.
And I’ll continue to take vitamin D. The sun will return soon.
RACHEL JAMES is a native New Yorker and theatre baby. Her plays have been produced by The 52nd Street Project and Starfish Theatreworks. She currently makes a living as a Broadway treasurer.
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